Mahirap Mag-Open-Up... Pero Nakaya Ko?!
The past two weeks have been the most stressful time I've spent at DLSU. Aside from the quizzes that have demoralized us tremendously... (haha!) I have been faced with the biggest dilemma I had to face in my life... Confiding with my best friends about the one who has won and took away my heart. It wasn't easy for me to tell them because I was not used to being open with my very personal love life.. :) But with the kind of friends that i chose to attach my self with, breaking my silence (or prolly noise) came as easy as counting from one til three.
*sigh*
Now I think I can openly talk about it without my friends constantly asking "Sino ba?!" I asked Loren pa nga if now she knows why I fell so hard. I think she'll understand gradually na rin though right now we are opening up with each other more and more. I have proven to myself that it was in these times when our friendship will be put to the 'ultimate' test. But I guess it was not that much of a test at all. Because all the while they have been keeping their hunch of me liking ____. (Haha!) Nonetheless, formally they can say na "Shoit sya nga noh?! Sabi ko na eh..."
I think, however, that letting them know would eventually lead me to the point of letting go, the thing I wanna do for the longest time. I know they understood me on why I chose to fall rather than soar away from the one who has kept my heart crying for six months. They were but my best friends after all...
Just a thought lang before I end this.. Alyanna asked me a while ago if gusto ko raw mareciprocate nya ung feeling ko.. My mouth obviously said NO because it would take so much effort for that reciprocation to happen. But she then asked again "What if ireciprocate nya ung feeling mo...?" I told her na lang... "Then I would be the happiest person in the world.. Dream come true... Il never want anything.. anymore..."
With that being said... I end this shit... thinking about us... being with u... but this crap won't take me anywhere.. But I am happy for you... :)
The past two weeks have been the most stressful time I've spent at DLSU. Aside from the quizzes that have demoralized us tremendously... (haha!) I have been faced with the biggest dilemma I had to face in my life... Confiding with my best friends about the one who has won and took away my heart. It wasn't easy for me to tell them because I was not used to being open with my very personal love life.. :) But with the kind of friends that i chose to attach my self with, breaking my silence (or prolly noise) came as easy as counting from one til three.
*sigh*
Now I think I can openly talk about it without my friends constantly asking "Sino ba?!" I asked Loren pa nga if now she knows why I fell so hard. I think she'll understand gradually na rin though right now we are opening up with each other more and more. I have proven to myself that it was in these times when our friendship will be put to the 'ultimate' test. But I guess it was not that much of a test at all. Because all the while they have been keeping their hunch of me liking ____. (Haha!) Nonetheless, formally they can say na "Shoit sya nga noh?! Sabi ko na eh..."
I think, however, that letting them know would eventually lead me to the point of letting go, the thing I wanna do for the longest time. I know they understood me on why I chose to fall rather than soar away from the one who has kept my heart crying for six months. They were but my best friends after all...
Just a thought lang before I end this.. Alyanna asked me a while ago if gusto ko raw mareciprocate nya ung feeling ko.. My mouth obviously said NO because it would take so much effort for that reciprocation to happen. But she then asked again "What if ireciprocate nya ung feeling mo...?" I told her na lang... "Then I would be the happiest person in the world.. Dream come true... Il never want anything.. anymore..."
With that being said... I end this shit... thinking about us... being with u... but this crap won't take me anywhere.. But I am happy for you... :)
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